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[ Thursday, September 23, 2004 ]

 

Struggling

I just can't shake it. I work myself harder than I used to...doing one thing then another...organizing, tabling, teaching, stressing, fundraising...anything to keep me busy..keep me from thinking. But it doesn't ever go away. You can't drown yourself in life, hoping to forget, especially when what you're trying to forget is your life.

I'm not motivated anymore. I can try to pretend all I want, put on a face, have random burts of energy, but it's not true to my heart. Where there was once love for what I used to do, all that's left is the empty burden of obligation. And wanting to get back where I was.

In the end, I just feel drained and want to hide.

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